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CUT

from CUT by Meres

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About the song…
A friend of mine’s father passed away a while ago, and I wrote this song around that time. Mostly because I felt incredibly guilty, that we are such good friends but it’s as though I don’t know them at all anymore, just the way that life kind of divides you. That being around your friends when young, not caught up in all the noise of everything… It’s about being desperate for connection. To be able to communicate with the people you love and care for so much, and yet you can’t find any words. But it is as though you want to burn, to hurt, to feel that kind of intense connection with someone, that may have formerly existed, but now it’s as though I am only able to scratch the surface with so many people in my life. It’s absolutely terrifying to feel like you don’t even know the people that you’re the closest with, in theory. That you have faced the big life stuff with. When writing this song, it was also the end of a very long relationship. I think it was the first time in a long time I’d felt truly alone and a bit pathetic, and definitely felt that typical issue of having not nurtured friendships well enough, so that no one was there to lean on when I was at my lowest.

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Breaking the odds
Teeth like a tightrope
I didn’t know
The situation’s a mess

Wanted to hide
Wanted to go outside
Wanted to feel alive
We’re talking in swollen tongues
The feeling was all gone

In dark days
It’s like you get off on the fear
Dark days
Sentimental, lonely and weird
Dumb plans
Spiral on that thing that you said
Your match
Three years ago to the faceless ideal

Tear me to shreds
Regret that you tried again
To tackle the pile
Of irreparable vile ends
Wanted to seek
Something that would keep me open
To secular bliss
But the timing’s always wrong
And I forgot how it feels
To belong

It’s like you get off on the fear
Dark days
Sentimental, lonely and weird
Dumb plans
Spiral on that thing that you said
Your match
Three years ago to the faceless ideal

Too tired, too broken
Rapidly aging
Close all the curtains
Isn’t it hilarious
To unravel
Watching yourself fail
Like you can’t take it
Facing the next stage on your own

If I can fake it you can fool anyone too
Let them see the lie for what it is

These outdated coping mechanisms
Surround you with dread
And I’m winding myself up in crisis mode trying to be your friend
I don’t remember it being this hard to just say what you mean
And I’m not in your head but it feels like I have given into your grief
Tell me what does it mean

Wanted to feel
Something again
Not be involved
In petty arguments
Wanted to breathe
Without you holding my neck
Tumble down the real
Cuts you meant

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from CUT, released April 7, 2020

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Meres Launceston, Australia

Conceived in the perfect echo chambers of Canada’s cheap motel bathrooms, Meres is the solo, (yet highly collaborative) project of Mary Shannon. Hailing from the vibrant music scene of northern Tasmania/lutruwita, Australia, Shannon delivers a captivating blend of reverberating vocals and brooding dissonance. ... more

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